All I can say

In God we trust...

That doesn't mean the government is God.

There are many governments across the globe. And in times of devastation other people and factions get involved. But that doesn't make them God, or any superpower.

They can govern themselves. Only God can judge. Me, and/ or, you. We need to change.

Myself included. I need to change. Since my days as an escort and my retirement  from that profession. I have been harassed. Called Jesus. Said to be a sacrifice. Reverse racism came my way because of different clients.

And slut shamed. Called a thief. Called racist.

Bullied. And scandalized. Marginalized and degraded to dirt, and filth. I was told I have aids when I've been tested and I'm disease free. This has been too much to handle. I'm unimportant  in the grander scheme of things.

I never became famous and I don't want to become famous. That's too much pressure to live  by other people's  standards.  I could handle it I imagine. But what is important to me is a world without fear. A world without judgement till my day comes. And I have repented and feel remorse and guilt and shame. And I apologize. I have grown changed and evolved. I'm not the same person I once was. I have issues of my own. And as for my struggle and struggles I remember the people who cared and care for me. The sex industry. Adult entertainment is to be taken at face value. It is what it is. A little energy to tap into and apply with your significant  other in life. I was primarily cyber and web cam and few meetings and travel.

I still had my own life. I feel like some of you have no life. And terrorize people through your methods. I can forgive and forget. It's not worth it to terrorize me. It's not worth it to have a scandal. And as perplexing as all this may sound- I don't share my former life with any one. I can keep a secret. And I'm fully aware. And have keen senses. I'd like to be left alone. I'd love to be loving comforting arms of my family and friends and if I am to be punished by God I will be. I don't wear it as a badge of honor that flirted with prominent men and women. I humored a lot. I'm taking care of myself. Expressing myself and my heart and mind. And I have done nothing to destroy a union or attacked anyone. Or black mail. Or promote myself. It's a small world. Just coincidence. I think I've earned peace of mind. And the calm after the storm. Thank you. Have a blessed day.