The Rapture

I'm a fire sign 💥

A Sagittarius 🏹 

I need to be calm 

Like water or air 🌊💨

Or earth 🌎🌍

But they too can be tumultuous

And I am daring and adventurous

But sensitive and overemotional

I must learn to dull my senses

And shut my body down

Control my mind 

And awaken my spirit

And learn to offer of my true self

That of a kind sweet natured boy

That likes everything and everyone

And not fight with my ego

I must delay my pleasure

And not only self gratify myself

I must control my ego and attitude

And learn my opinion and statements

Are not more important than anyone's

I say this humbly I only respond coyly

Because someone one day may have

A voice that echoes and booms

Over crowds and they hopefully 

Will be able to change the world 

With their voice

Forgive me for using mine

As I try to understand

The human experience

I must learn to let go 

Of my tragic sense of irony and pain

My humor and not believe in coincidence

Because we all suffer the same

I must learn discipline

Respect and life lessons

That is the school 

Of a hard knocked life

And maybe my sweetness 

Will ultimately suffice

Perhaps the tears of the holy

And the blood of Christ

With the holy water and oil

Will be enough food for me

I must try a clean diet

Andithero and confession

And repenting for my sins

And prayer and meditation

And yoga and excersize

And the holy ghost within

Will catapult me to the heavens

There is no promise 

For such a reward

But I only hope Jesus loves me

As I have only him to adore

This is the rapture of my soul

And I'm learning to let go of poison

I must challenge myself

And give up on men and boys 

Then I will offer myself to God

I will feel ecstasy profound

Maybe I will be spared or found

Or enlightened somehow

I must learn to let go

Because my future depends on 

My spiritual awakening 

And not my ego