My rape

I have an aversion to masks

My rapist wore a mask

And there again I am in the room

With the chains and rope, chainsaw,

And coils he would use to frighten me

No one could hear my screams

And yes it's like a bad dream

A nightmare where no one could see me

Or hear me only him

He called me his precious little faggot

And little names I vomited because of it

We all do wear a veil sometimes

in-between the person and ourselves

It's like a barrier and sheen

A defense we always have up

A guard- not avante gaurde

But I've grown tired and restless

I tell myself I was never raped

So I can face the day

And sometimes I cry

It gives me bad memories

I was so scared at night

As the chain saw roared and cut through 

The dentist chair he had

And the chains on my body were so heavy

And coils inserted inside me

I bleed rivers

I still cry

But I won't let him win

I'll own my sexuality

I've turned into a virgin then whore

Then celebate person then normal 

Happy go lucky male

But I always do remember 

When I was that frail

I got raped 

So what

He wore an animal mask

Probably worshipping the devil

As he cut into me and burned me

But I realized and discovered

I have the power

I hold the key 

God still does love me

If he didn't I wouldn't be doing better

I'd still find a way to blame myself

And me or I can't take it

I'm a guy who does deserve the finest

The grandest and to me that is 

Love peace and comfort

My rape-so what!

No one deserves it!