love/hate

I'm in a love/ hate relationship

With myself....

I'm in a strange place; currently,

I can do without criticism...

I can do without blame

And pointing fingers

I suffer the same itis

I haven't always played safe

Not by choice

It was robbed from me

No, I don't have aids

And I don't want your social disease

I'm not a pedophile

I am sure I am a sinner

But I don't suffer from evil things

You have a lot to say behind my back

You have gone out of your way to stab me

U have everything to gain by circumstance

You have played your game viciously

I'm not God

I'm not Jesus

I'm not holy in anyway

I'm not from the other isle

And there is more to say

I won't come to be a queen

When the queen is dead 

You can take that from me

When are in the gutterand tiarss

It's too late

Such is fate

I dont want to collapse anymore

I'm closing the door behind me 

It's too late

You sealed your fate

I'm letting go of this for relief.

I'm letting go of this for the state of my being and chi.