I'm depressed

Day after day

I wake up

I don't rinse my face

I don't brush my teeth

I roll out of bed for caffeine

I light my cigarettes one after another

I eat until I fall will asleep of a food coma

Occasionally I'll go to the washroom

Some times I'll giggle 

Other times I will fart

I'll write something 

And forget to add a semi colon

Or a comma

There is that question mark 

Dangling over my head

When will ever be in good hygiene

When will I control my issues

And stop finding the need to be saved

Or blow off some steam and release

A worthless nothing of no importance

Although there is importance 

Of being earnest

And honesty

Happiness and time are forever fleeting

And no visits from animals

Or devil's or angels 

I feel stagnant and worthless

When I don't work and provide

A shelter for what is going on 

Inside of my mind

I'm worthless

I'm depressed

And I don't even want to change 

my clothes or bathe or get undressed

I'm near a new plateau of sinking

I must learn to swim with positive thinking

I need to change

And rearrange my thoughts

I need to put them in order

I've turned into a creep

And I feel like everyone is laughing at me

I'm depressed and I will never forget.