My blood will rise

I've been wrestling and trying to decide

Whether to be responsible for what I write

It's an artist's quote to disturb the peace

And create a briiiant food for thought

Something that will make you think

I'm tired of the concept of right and wrong

I have to live my life

And find out where I belong

For someone who has such a little life

I have faced so many things

I almost had a wife and a husband

I almost had a child and many friends

I know what's right for me 

And I know what to pursue

I know what is worthwhile

I know I can't pretend

You don't really have a clue

You may not even care

All you seem to do is say how sick I am

And what color is my underwear

The only person that can judge me is God

An entity

The force of good and the light

So bright and you should do right by me

For one day I will go off

Like nothing ever before

And I can't take this anymore

My blood will begin to rise

It will leave droplets in your eyes

It will rain upon your head

It will pour and splatter 

Until I'm dead

My blood will begin to rise

It will stain your pillow

As it soaks your bed linen 

And you begin to weep for me

You may not be concerned

You may have your eyes on other guys

But you will think of me

I may have been a bad boy 

Tried every drug there is 

And I smoke way too many cigarettes

But I lift my head up and try 

To change my life

I am wrestling and changing 

And trying to decide to be in the middle

Of the road or strike balance

Or be rebellious 

And give back tough love

I give good love

I don't hate you

I don't hate life

I want to change my life

So I will try

To be a good person 

But one day my blood will rise

It is sweet 

I have had a taste of it before

But it's nothing like communion

Or confession or opening the door

Of your heart and unlocking the key

The remedy to misery and hopelessness And tragedy

My blood will rise and then you will see

What you have done to me

The feeling will subside 

And time will freeze and go in reverse

The seasons will change

For I am not a martyr 

I'm not even a saint

And my life has been a blessing

And sometimes you made it feel 

Like a curse 

It seems I've always been in pain

And my blood will begin to rise

It's so thick- it makes me weary

I feel so sick like one day soon, I will die

My blood will begin to rise

You don't know of my pain, venom 

Or anger, or my silence 

Or all of my attributes 

Or why I'm always at risk

Or how I'm always in danger

But I'd rather be me than a prostitute

Of the wealthy selling my soul

You are all shook up by what I am saying

I'm not losing control of myself

I worship the Divinity

I worship God and Jesus Christ

I believe in America

I almost want to propose

I'm ready to be a real housewife

A lady of leisure vacationing in Greece

But you don't get my irony 

Or my quest for peace

My blood will begin to rise

And nation of millions will soon follow

You will be become under attack

And there will be no instructions for you

To follow- you will have no where to hide from what you have done to us

I don't wish you death 

One you might even die

We created the most important things

Anything and everything valuable 

And of significance and of beauty

The most classic to the most bizarre

And humourous and modern trends

To the most sublime and the most goofy

You are just arrogant 

And you are looking

To have your way 

You want us to go back to prehistoric 

And the unreasonable days of where 

We were tortured in jail cells and fed lies

And till this day we are still decapitated

And crucified

Bullied and harassed

And I can testify

I have news for you

My words will be resurrected

And they will find their place somewhere 

In the ether and one day soon or inevitably

When you think it's over and it's time

For fun 

You'll see I have truth on my side

My blood will rise