In and Out

I'm down on my knees

With knees on the floor

In prayerful position

Forgive me Mighty One

For my transgressions

For my crusade

And my regression

I'm not much of anything

Without you

I say a prayer on my knees

And I do my cross 

In the little box I live in

That I sentenced myself in

I want you to forgive me for my sins

I will repent and begin to flourish

In the community I live in

I have a complex yet simple

Intricate and messy tidy bow

I wrap all things in

I can't live this way 

In arrogance with no hope for solution

And all this pollution with no hope

For resolution even if I live for many days

And years- I can't go to past 

And live in fear

The only one I fear is you

That I've disappointed you

That I have wasted what you have

Given to me

Please forgive me

I will pray relentlessly

Your love has tried to welcome me

And I can't go back

Your love has tried to welcome me

And I will admit for once

What I desire and I lack within myself

I hope you can show me the way

To not ask for much and find comfort

In the skin I live in

And these four walls and four corners 

Of this box I live in

Im taking steps to improve my life

And getting more comfortable 

With my decisions

I have never truly rebelled against you

And I seek your guidance

And your permission

To live my life during your inquisition

Out of the box and back again 

In a box I'll go when I'm six feet under

And the rest only you know

I breathe in and out

Inhale and exhale

Thank you for giving this to me

I love you endlessly