You are in my heart💜❤️💗

Do I know you from somewhere?

I don't recognize the things I've said before. 

All the stupid things I pray and wish for don't happen for me. And I know you are waiting there for me behind closed doors.

Do I know you from somewhere?

Do you love me for what I did before?

I don't recognize my actions or my statements. Or my prayers and wishes.

I only remember my state of being through most my life. And I remember I've always been awkward. 

And all this time...

I've been walking on a thin line of redemption and ridicule.

I want you to hold me when I'm crying and dying of a certain paradox of life.

I wear this thing for protection.

I do it to keep me in your presence.

I open the door.

I want you to cleanse me of my sins.

I want you to heal my skin.

I want you to heal my burdens.

What must I do for this to happen?

Do I know you like I claim to?

Heal my mind.

Heal my body.

Heal my faults.

I'm working on this.

I know I must chant more.

Do I know you from somewhere?

Is this something stupid I've said before?

Do I know you like I claim to?

I have no expectations.

Have I said this before?

What must I do for this to happen?

And I thank you!

For listening to me in silence...

For listening to me out loud....

For listening to me when I talk to myself....

For listening to me when I pray....

Thank you for each day!

Do I know you from somewhere?

You don't owe a thing to me!

I have no expectations.

I'm thinking clearly now.

And I open the door.

Right there, behind the door is my heart.

My only heart.

I will start to make you very proud.

And there is no distance between us.

You are in my heart.