Molestation & Rape

Don't know if this was a bad dream

Don't know if it's meant to happen to me

Don't know if I asked for this

Don't know who molested me

Years later I was date raped

Can't say I copied with it very well

Now I remember who touched me

And all the words he said to me

I want to light my body on fire

Cleanse my self of any impurity

I don't have anyone who'll listen

Except The Divinity

I do my cross and respect the Holy Trinity

I don't have anyone who'll listen 

Except my mother 

And I'm sure I'm driving her crazy

I don't want to be an added problem

I wish I was just normal

Whatever that means

And regain sanity

My punishment is that I'm not a victim

I must stay strong or be a silly weirdo

That no one believes

This is what is wrong with this

This is what's wrong with me

Oh please forgive me Father

I don't know what to do

With what I am going through

Even I question but I hold on to my faith

And belief in you